I am still awake after writing my last entry about those footsteps behind my door. I’m sitting in our dark house and have only lit a candle for light. Sitting there, with fear touching my heart, I fully understand why humans cling to technology and artificial light so much. The mystical, the unexplainable realm, the …
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Whenever I am at YoungVision and someone crosses himself in the way the churches do, someone else always says: “No! Don’t close yourself.”, and follows this up with the circular hand motion. Both these motions are interesting to me. The crossing motion as a form of closing and the circular motion as a form of …
Why am I waking up at 02:00 am (roughly) every night and exactly once? Normally I find sleep again, but tonight it eludes me. I find myself remembering a curious incident from when I was younger. A teenager, roughly guessing. I was laying awake at night, in my upstairs room, hearing footsteps outside my door. …
When we wish to start doing something we often look towards motivation. How do I motivate myself to act? Then try to find some general trick to access this “universal motivation”. We read books, listen to podcasts or watch videos on the topic. Sometimes we even ask other people. And yet it never really seems …
We all need rest. And when I write this, I don’t mean unconcious rest (sleep), although that is critically important to a successful life. Sometimes we all need to rest while being fully concious. And I don’t think many people know how to actually do that. Hell, in such a noisy and restless world, I …
When it comes to finding out what you need, I think we all would benefit greatly from developing our own language. Because what I need at any given moment is so vastly different and individual to me as a human being, that it’s almost impossible to create a system that fits everyone. What do you …
When everything falls away and I really get to the bottom of myself, all I really want is this: A peaceful and happy life. Not money, not status, not sex, not a huge house, a fast car or a diamond watch. I don’t mind having any of these things, but what I really want is …
The impact of the coronavirus seems to be something big. These are some thoughts about how to navigate the coming months. First corona was just something on the news. Far away. In February the ITB and every big live-event was cancelled. In March we had shops being short on essentials, people looking up nervously when …
I always thought the comfort zone to be perfectly round circle inside of me that can only ever expand. Here is an example:Sometimes I do not like to meet people and groups. I thought this to be a result of my comfort-zone not being expanded far enough to include that. But once expanded enough, meeting …
I think when it comes to motivation, energy and happiness / peace, I am currently at my all-time lowest. Once again those practices that would help me the most in those times, seem least available to me. I know they are good for me. It doesn’t matter if it’s meditation, movement or a heart-to-heart talk …