It’s just after midnight, so it’s my birthday now! And right now I am spending it happily with myself. This past year went by fast and I am thankful for many things. But right now I want to thank one person in perticular: I want to thank myself. I want to thank myself for always …
The greatest gift my father ever gave me was laughing with me at the movies and games I enjoyed as a child. I remember some of those moment quite clearly. I remember watching Jackie Chan movies with him, and hearing him laugh at the funny scenes or being impressed by the action scenes made me… …
Here are two unrelated memories I sometimes find hard to carry. I am not sure why I am writing these down, but here we are. The first heavy memory is, that I remember my grandfathers death and funeral, but not the one of my grandmother. For some reason I remember nothing. I don’t know why. …
What is the place for science and knowledge when it comes to meeting another human being? I’ve started to read Carl Jung because the name came up around me again and again. In his writing I feel very much at home so far and I can relate to many things, although I have chosen different …
With all the chasing of happieness and the good life, I thought it would be a good idea to define the very worst life imaginable. Why? Because after doing so you know where making (or not making) certain choices might lead you. So let’s begin! In my oppinion the worst kind of life is not …
The digital gods whisper in many languages. One of them is time. It’s one of their favorites. Time is created by your mind and it is through this gateway, that the digital gods try to rob you of all your attention. All of it. One way to defend against this is to simply step out …
A thought about why I’m having such trouble fasting right now has just crossed my mind. Because I’ve been spending so much time in the digital world, eating and watching porn seem to be like an emergency escape route for my system to get back into my body. A bit like violently catapulting myself out …
I figured that healthy fasting is impossible for me (or at least ten times harder) when I do not inlcude the mental level. Especially some form of digital fasting. Because for me these things seem connected. When I’m overloaded with information my system knows biting, tasting, chewing, swallowing as an emergency escape route. Fasting forbids …
It’s way after midnight and I can’t sleep. For the last two days I wanted to fast, but failed. And again my smartphone is never off. What has changed? Some things I notice:At the moment there is no deeper question in my life. A few weeks ago I was carrying the question “What is a …
A memory just came back to me that I would like to share. Here it is: It way the day before I was supposed to hold a two day workshop at the young vision festival. I didn’t feel ready and let myself get talked into it. And I also wanted it for my ego/status. For …