A thought about why I’m having such trouble fasting right now has just crossed my mind.
Because I’ve been spending so much time in the digital world, eating and watching porn seem to be like an emergency escape route for my system to get back into my body.
A bit like violently catapulting myself out of an overloaded mind-space.
And the landing is exactely as rough as that sounds.
Food and Sex to get back into my body. That makes sense to me, since both are probably the most fundamental physical sensations. Both channel energy away from my mind.
But make no mistake:
While this works to some degree, it is neither healthy nor a good solution to the underlying problem. If anything, it creates more problems, since you slowly begin to confuse food and sex with something they are not: Tools of distraction.