Julian is gone. Slowly but surely our little work-group in Tenerife is coming to an end. Daniel and I are leaving tomorrow.
I notice two things:
First – the sense of nostalgic beauty that surrounds things that are ending. Making room for new beginnings.
Second – the impact of a person that is disciplined on the inside as well as the outside.
Julians day to day life here was like clockwork: Getting up at 7 a.m., running, work, playing a videogame, sleep. Every day. While one part of me wants to label that as overly robotic and machine-like, I can’t deny the fact that such a person has a positive impact on a community. A sense of stability and achievement, stability and purpose.
The question now is:
Can I be that person for myself?
Can I be that person without losing my foolish side?
Can I be both disciplined and playful when necessary?
It seems to me that this discipline can be a good container for playfulness.
And looking at these questions with this in mind, I think I can be that person for myself.
Maybe I am already.